I completely overextended myself this year. I wanted to do SO much and NONE of it happened. Like, not. a. one. My professional life was chaotic at one point and because I allocated ALL my energy into repairing THAT (because, let’s be real. It takes money to make money and I ain’t got it like that to be an Entrepreneur full-time – so I have to work.) I had nothing left for ME. And by ME I mean, my emotional well-being, my company, my social life, and my physical health. Just ME as a person. I kind of gave up. I got to a point where I allowed the criticism, I was receiving in my professional life to change the person I am and how I operate outside of that space. I started doubting myself and second guessing everything. I doubted who I am as an employee and as an Entrepreneur. Like…I couldn’t understand WHY I felt so lost. And my lack of focus was bleeding into every part of my life. I was going through the motions because I have to maintain my household and make a living. However, I felt like I was in a fog. All of my days ran together. I was trying to juggle too much at one time and in true Linda fashion, I withdrew from everything. When I feel overwhelmed, I will seclude myself because my misery doesn’t like company.
So, I retreated into myself and just said eff it. I shut down and for a while I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to go anywhere, do anything or see anyone. I didn’t feel inspired. I didn’t feel like I was smart enough to be an entrepreneur. I didn’t feel like I brought any value to anyone. I felt like I didn’t bring anything different to the beauty industry. I put so much pressure on myself to get all these things done that it was crippling. I felt stuck. And in feeling stuck, I talked myself out of achieving every single one of my goals. I didn’t sell any merchandise. I didn’t book any gigs. I didn’t plan any content. I didn’t record, edit or post any videos. I just…didn’t…do…anything. I felt like my entrepreneurial life was a mess and questioned if I was really about this life.
I was in a funk. Creatively, I wasn’t feeling it. I didn’t find makeup fun anymore and it used to bring me so much joy. I had to snap out of it. I had to remember why I started. So, I scrapped everything and started from scratch. It’s as if I smashed my Entrepreneurial House of Cards and am going to start all over. I don’t mind it though. There is a rare beauty in starting over.
So that’s what I’m doing. I’m starting over and I’m coming in HOT. Bear with me. I'm only one person.
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